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Month: November 2019

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Trust is one way

Posted on November 18, 2019December 24, 2019by The Darkest Knight

Despite all the trust you have to put in the counsellor, they don’t have to trust you. This fact is quite difficult for me. You would only usually share parts of your true self with people who are close friends or family. Yet in the counsellor relationship, the counsellor always remains a stranger. You know […]

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Why I started this Blog

Posted on November 10, 2019August 28, 2020by The Darkest Knight

A personal blog, I started writing after the sudden death of my brother. It made me realise how short life really is, after years of living with depression, I have decided to have counselling and make significant improvements in my life. As fifty rapidly approaches, I realise I am getting old and I don’t know […]

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When two voices fight

Posted on November 6, 2019December 22, 2019by The Darkest Knight

My negative voice controls me, contradicts everything I say, criticises everything I do. It has the ability to turn any positive into a negative and strips away any happiness I manage to feel. I tried to map my thought process and demonstrate the negative paths. It isn’t easy to document, because it is constant, very […]

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Coping with loss

Posted on November 3, 2019December 1, 2019by The Darkest Knight

Coping with the loss of someone we love, is unfortunately something we all have to experience. The older we get the more people we lose. Loving someone is what causes such pain when they die, without love there would be no pain. If someone you know dies, but you’re not emotionally attached to them, you […]

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Feeling the anger

Posted on November 3, 2019August 16, 2020by The Darkest Knight

I don’t know where it comes from, but some days I am consumed with anger. I can feel it mostly in my chest, on occasions in my stomach. I keep gritting my teeth – causing a headache. I clench my fists, feel agitated and restless. It’s like when someone really annoys you and you lose […]

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