I was made redundant 11 days ago and I feel like I have absolutely no purpose in life. I feel more alone, lost and confused than ever. Employment has always been the greatest distraction, it enabled me to become engrossed, block everything else out. Now I cannot find a distraction and what I am left […]
Negative voice
My negative voice controls me, is always interrupting my thoughts. It contradicts everything I have said, criticises everything I do.It stops me living really.
I am finally starting to find myself
I am finally starting to find myself. I’ve been seeing my counsellor every week for a year, 5 times a week for the last month. I feel really bad, I hate it that she thinks I need so much of her time. At the same time I am so grateful to her. She is not […]
When two voices fight
My negative voice controls me, contradicts everything I say, criticises everything I do. It has the ability to turn any positive into a negative and strips away any happiness I manage to feel. I tried to map my thought process and demonstrate the negative paths. It isn’t easy to document, because it is constant, very […]
Started full time employment
I didn’t choose my job; my parents chose it for me. My sister was already working, she had arranged for me to get a job with her. In preparation for my first day, my mother told me what a state I was. My hair was a mess, needed cutting and I was a dirty spotty, […]