Today I was assessed by the Community Mental Health Team (CMHT), for treatment for the BPD. The only information they have about me is the report from the psychiatrist who diagnosed me. There were two of them on the call, for an hour I was asked to explain my life. I mean where do I […]
BPD
The diagnosis – psychiatric assessment
Having a psychiatric assessment felt like I had failed in both my quest to prove I do not have mental health issues, and as a human. Within the first couple of minutes he said he had a fair idea of what the problem was, the report sent to him by Heidi had given him a […]
Having an ‘Episode’
I’ve just returned from a four day ‘episode’. I call it episode in the absence of having a more appropriate word to describe it. Another way to describe it would be a suicidal meltdown. I was already struggling, then a call with my therapist was the final straw. Heidi is the therapist that I have […]
I need to understand both BPD and myself
I cannot stop asking myself if I have BPD. I feel distraught, I cannot tell you how incredibly sad I feel. It is hard enough to deal with sadness when you understand the cause or reason, but I am sobbing uncontrollably and don’t even know why! It feels like everything has changed. I have always […]